Tuesday, 26 March 2013

Start of a journey

Have not posted anything for a long time. I have been having a horrible time with symptoms since I had botox treatments at the end of January. Life is just barely returning to normal.

I am starting Weight Watchers Online today. Hoping losing some weight will help with the balance issues, and my health in general.

My weight has been an issue nearly all my life. In grade school I was chubby. My mother was an obsessive cleaner, to the point that if you paused in eating -- even to chat, or take a moment to decide if you were full or not -- she would instantly clear away your plate, and you had no chance to eat until the next meal. Snacks were not allowed due to being very poor: food was rationed at all times. It got to the point I would eat nonstop, often swallowing without chewing fully, so that I had a chance to get full before she cleared away the plate, and my chance was gone. Unfortunately this habit of quickly eating much more than I need has followed me some 40+ years later. It is definitely a habit I need to break.

I also eat when I am bored, stressed, happy, sad, etc. I need to learn that food is just for hunger/energy, and not for emotional reasons.

I want to be thin and healthy... I am not sure I have the willpower however to get there. But I am sure going to try.

Tuesday, 1 January 2013

Reflections on The Twins

It is wonderful to see the twins growing as fast as they do, and changing day by day. The past couple weeks has seen amazing changes in them, as they are really starting to talk more.
Since they were born prematurely, they have been going to the local Child Development Centre for assessments every month or two, to make sure everything is going along smoothly. So far it is going good: at first they were seen as several months behind their age, but they have caught up, and are even ahead developmentally in a few areas.
We are keeping up with the assessments, since there is a huge history of ADD and dyslexia in the family, and since Autism is thought to be of significant higher risk for preemie twins. We want to make sure they have the help when/if problems arise, rather than trying to get help after years of fighting with teachers, as was the case with my husband (who did not get help with his ADD and Dyslexia until grade 12), my middle child (both issues, grade 4) and my son (both issues grade 1). Their mother is the only one of my kids who does not have either ADD or Dyslexia, so I am hoping that maybe it is not passed on to them. Only time will tell.

These pictures are the final instalment of the 32 days of #Iheartfaces photochallenge. I was not successful in doing all of them, but I did have fun with the few that I did. I am going to try to find another photochallenge to work on in January, as it does give me something to think about, and a focus for the day -- both in blogging, as well as something to think about in an otherwise boring day, when one day seems just like any other. Looking for these neat little photo challenges or blog ideas is one way to keep mentally busy. I am still just using my iPod camera for them: I do have a point-&-shoot digital camera, which is a bit better quality, but have lost the camera cable for it, so while I can take photos, they are trapped in the neverland abiss of the camera -- so prefer the crappy quality for now that I can post from right away, vs the one that traps them forever, unless it is an event worthy of momentous photos, like birthdays and weddings. One day I will break down and order a new cable -- and as luck will have it, will likely find the missing cable that very afternoon.